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| 26 Feb 2013 08:11 PM |
One night on the fifth of nights my thought of the world shall come to an end for I will have gone mad from all this demented act of the world's people. I shall not once, not twice, but three times look into the eyes of a vulture, and that must be the breaking point of my mind. My attention span is not the longest in the world, but my focus sure can be at the highlight of moments. I am simple yet complicated. What shall this come to where I am to lose grasp of this pulchritudinous world, and to doze off into the most pragmatic autocosms known to mankind. For this is my future, I am to die and for my soul to disappear into the pit of tuataras for the rest of eternity forever how long that may be, or until this very universe is to implode and for mankind to be forgotten of. A new race of people shall move in, sophisticated and polite to tell the least. I will remain torturous and sitting in the bottom of tuataras as lonesome as I am now, watching this new race's every move. I am the new race. I am superhuman. I am history. What shall become of a lonesome, commiserative superhuman of my kind? Shall I along with my brethren continue living in such a fashion where not only I, but other miserable trekkies such as myself be so, jived? I propose this new world should come and go, yet remain as one whole, but with fighting comes peace, with a brawl here and there, comes perfidy. Sounds like a good way for a world to be created. I am a god from now until I am forgotten of; I shall bring down retribution on this world so that I will never be forgotten. Never shall I fade away, never to be left alone again. Some may say I am moonstruck, but I am none of the such. If anything your erratic comments should make you outright ashamed. Some may say that I am just another simpleton that needs remedial education for I shall craze or I dare say be a perturbation, to these undistinguished, unkempt plebeians. They are all simply false claims, I'm not crazy, nor am I idiotic of any kind! What has come to this world of people to where they call such a genius like me a simpleton! I thought the world's people were smart, not as smart as I, but smart at the least. They are getting more idiotic as the generations pass. This is why I propose this wipe-out of mankind, not because they just beleaguer me but because of the idiocy growing in the people these days. I have lived through many generations and not only is the intelligence level dropping, but the politeness and just over all the manors. They have been murdered, slaughtered, just all around thrown into the ground and stepped on repeatedly. As said earlier, this is the reason mankind needs, shall we say reset. This is why, I shall not admit to my idiocy for I am what you call a 'superhero'. You shall praise my rule, for I will not be so nice if you defy me. You will come to notice once you defy my rule you shall never go back for it is a one-way road. This shall bring shame upon your future generations. After my realization has finally come true, I understand I do not want this. I am self-centered, why has it taken so long for the, what I thought was intelligence but has now come to mind that I am mad, and I am what others call of me. I am a disturbance, and all those other things. I don't know the spirit that has brought from my heart to write this, but is it uncontrollable fury? Why has it taken so long for myself to come to this conclusion? I am what I am I guess, like God on death’s row, it is confusing, sure, but does everyone go through this faze? I don’t particularly know, I guess I am not that ‘superhuman’ I thought of myself, I am just a babbling self-revolving idiot. It has come to the point I am probably done with writing this, I feel as it is a waste of time. To be or not to be, life happens like this, or so I think. All that I have thought so far has been false, so is this also? It's very complicated, unexplainable is a great word, so shall I go and attempt my failure? I think I shall, so here it goes; stuff happens, a lot, and all too fast. I have noticed in the two weeks since writing this, that this is what I like to do when bored, and I claim to myself,” Writing is useless...,” when writing is how you express your feelings, weather you are writing to someone in particular, in a formal way or not, and in my mind this has been directed to many people, but one in particular, I might show this to that one person, and I might now, it depends on what their thoughts on the topic are. I get that you say I am wasting my time, but I am not really wasting my time, more like spending it in the wrong way, but that is not wasting. Wasting my time is sitting around the house like a bump on a log and saying to myself, this is where my world ends, and frankly that is incorrect. It is not over, it has just begun, and you can take this as a thank you, or take it every which way you would like to. Stuff happens in life, and it took me a while to notice this, when I should have noticed this immediately because I am a so called superhuman, but this is more reason against the fact that I am not. The people who have been reading this have been helping me through this mind journey, I have been searching through my future, and I have yet to find the occupation that fits myself, and how I act and treat other people. I say to myself that I am nice, when in reality I am a bigger jerk than any other guy you could find, weather he is off the streets, he will be grateful, or if he is a stuck up rich kid, he will insist more, and you may not be able to fulfill that. Then there is me, not the top, but more towards the middle, showing that I am not that hard to please, but still a bit hard to please. It is hard work getting to know me, I am perplexed. My own act has been demented, not the worlds people. I am no trekkie, I am a freak. I will find where my place is in the world, it will take a while, because of my stubborn act, but I will find it. I can promise you that. I am more than trying to see what to do with my life, I am writing my feelings, which may come out more than I think, but I feel concealed. This is my life, if you learn from this, your welcome, if not, then I spent my time on something I do when bored which I obviously am now. So what now, do I say goodbye, or is this just a hello? It is your decision, you decide for yourself. My attitude towards the world has changed yet again. I don't know if this should be considered a bad change, or a horrible change. You must decide; I am continually writing, when I really don't want to. What I am still contemplating is that, I want to at the same time, so what do I do? For the past, I don't know 2 weeks, I have been writing this. I have been criticized for it, and I have been complimented. My haters, whom I don't have, any, say that this is alright. The general public says it is grammatically horrible. Which it is indeed grammatically incorrect, because I really am not going to make it grammatically correct; I am simple writing my feelings. Then the people that are my friends, say it is amazing. Those are the only opinions I care about. Those are what have been keeping me writing. It is my friends. I think I have lost one of my close friends today, and I regret ever arguing with her. I was an idiot and I don't think I could ever take that back. It was the mistake of the day, and as I said earlier today, I only do about 2 right things a week, and there was the bad thing. It just kept getting compounded. It happened so fast, I didn't even notice it happen. Then reading over it again, I noticed that; I did deserve that demotion, and many more. Thank the lord that I only got one, I deserved many, many more and if I would have been demoted further, I would have quit. I said I wouldn't but going back over it, I would have; after reading this, a Trainee is what I should be at the moment. She was being gracious and I freaked out on her, and was extremely angry and brought real life into it. I screwed up; big time. It will take forever to get my rank back, because probably in the reform, just about everyone that is a higher rank than me, I am on their nerves. It is a huge doubt that I will become an HR in this new reform, but I am okay with that. I will just have to prove myself again as I did before in June. Yes, it was a lot of work, but life isn't fair, I will get over it.
tl;dr = hi
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