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| 22 Dec 2012 10:07 PM |
If you're not bothered about other people, we're very much alike. So don't waste your time with this thread, I just felt as if I should vent some time, see if what people tell me really works. And considering I really have no real friends, no girlfriend, family that wouldn't believe me if I said half of this stuff, or any source in my life that'd even care about somebody as idiotic, snobbish and selfish as myself. I don't blame anyone nor am I seeking sympathy, I just wanted to get it out, you know.
I won't post this on my main, as far as people are concerned I'm not the sort to share emotions and such with a random board of people, nor with people I know for that matter. I've always regarded emotion as a weakness and that only idiots would bother wasting tears or time over something, but it's really got me down recently. And I can't tell why.
I spend my weekdays counting down until the weekend, my daytimes counting down to the night time, counting the minutes until a new hour, I've wasted all of my life doing nothing but counting down time in the hope that something will change and give me reason, or meaning. Only, I don't want to any more, I've given up on it.
I won't fluff around with words, by all means I want to die, I beckon death as much as I can, only my life gives me absolutely no reason to take it in to my own hands to end it. The absence to end a life should never bring around its own demise. I feel as if I should break somebodies heart, get a terrible disease, commit a violent crime just to give myself a reason to tie a noose around my neck, but there is nothing. I can't bring myself around to it, nor give myself a reason to. There's just a crushing depression brought around by my own depression.
And I know most of us will disregard this as a 'troll' or some 'attention 'gnirohw kid, and I really hope most of us do. I just felt it would perhaps help to put it out to an anonymous board, where nobody knows me and I know nobody, simply for the fact that I've realised, if we don't vent from time to time, insanity will drive us to the point of no return.
VAK is a clan, RAT is a group, TGI is a spoof of the Imperial Guard from WH40K DoW. |
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| 22 Dec 2012 10:08 PM |
Just recovered from a coma.
Was hit by some giant wall.
Can't you cure me from the darkness ever present in my mind..? |
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| 22 Dec 2012 10:10 PM |
| TGI is a spoof of the Imperium of Man from warhammer40k. |
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| 22 Dec 2012 10:12 PM |
Kaboose Thats incorrect Its the opposite TGI made the training academy for IoM and did most of its battles
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| 22 Dec 2012 10:13 PM |
Also TGI is no spoof of anyore And you have 6 posts yes? You know NOTHING about the clan world So dont count your chickens before they hatch. |
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| 22 Dec 2012 10:13 PM |
Warhammer40k
IoM is an exact replica of IoM in the Warhammer40k universe.
TGI is just a spoof of it. The original weapons from the first stronghold. |
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| 22 Dec 2012 10:13 PM |
Points to you Mariofan, for noticing I said 'I won't post this on my main'. This is some extra account I have kicking around, turns out it had a use.
As for recovering from a coma, I'm sorry to hear such misfortune found you. Sadly there is no cure for a darkness that hangs over our minds, shrouding our thoughts and darkening our prospects. I don't even know why I feel so depressed half of the time, I'm a smart guy. I've passed my exams, I'm admired by the older people in society for having some form of common courtesy and for the fact I am quick to grasp concepts that are being freshly taught. Yet, I feel there is nothing for me here. We're all adrift in an uncaring world, in which everybody is out to help only themselves, all human interaction is based on lies and greed. The intense pain that comes with realising that true love will never find you in your life, simply because the concept of 'love' doesn't exist in itself. Our entire life in the end totals to nothing, we won't leave an impact on anybody or anything, our legacy will be forgotten as will who we were. And even if we could surround ourselves with people, no matter how many, in the end we all die alone, trying to grasp on for that little bit extra in the hope things will get better, yet they never will. |
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| 22 Dec 2012 10:14 PM |
Purple why the hell are you replying to my siggy.
And why do you think I'd read that.
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| 22 Dec 2012 10:14 PM |
| drink bleach to be amanda todd |
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| 22 Dec 2012 10:14 PM |
TGI was orignally the Arcadian Empire Then they switched to The Grand Imperium. And soon started aiding IoM TGI was no spoof of anyone |
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| 22 Dec 2012 10:15 PM |
Oh my god...
IoM from warhammer. The series that takes a lot of reading to understand. |
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| 22 Dec 2012 10:15 PM |
Read the initial post, I don't really care about any of this, nor if people take it seriously or not. I just wanted to vent a few things and overall the reaction is generally quite cheering.
Especially that Ghost kid claiming I know nothing of the Clan world when he joined in 2011. I did already state this was not my main account, no? |
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| 22 Dec 2012 10:17 PM |
Purple I originally joined in 2008, but switched accounts due to my old account being named my first name and letters so i chose Ghost(Numberspam) |
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| 22 Dec 2012 10:17 PM |
Again, I would gladly end myself, perhaps in a way less horrid than drinking Hydrogen Peroxide, yet life fails to provide a reason and thus I can't. I won't do it just for the sake of it, there is nothing here, nothing to keep me nor anything to lose me, or for that matter make me lose myself. Thus I'm stuck in this form of between life and death. |
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| 22 Dec 2012 10:19 PM |
so your saying ur gonna pull a amanda todd lol dramaaa bombb |
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| 22 Dec 2012 10:19 PM |
You clearly don't know much about clans, if you think somebody's join date makes them know little too. Clans have changed so much since they started it doesnt matter when you joined, you can't compare them.
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| 22 Dec 2012 10:20 PM |
Ghost, go to school and learn to read. Honestly, when serving in TGI with you I thought you were a little smarter than this. I like being proved wrong, though. Grants me the feeling of mortality.
And I know a lot more than somebody claiming TGI has nothing to do with Warhammer 40k. Coff, coff. |
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| 22 Dec 2012 10:20 PM |
diglet talkin' to me? or beyblade amanda todd |
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| 22 Dec 2012 10:21 PM |
Talking to purple.
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| 22 Dec 2012 10:22 PM |
TGI has a lot to do with warhammer40k. And warhammer40k has the imperium of man.
Except that IoM on roblox is more speeeehs murine'ish. While TGI is a spinoff of the IoM from warhammer40k. |
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| 22 Dec 2012 10:22 PM |
Since when did you serve with me in TGI? I dont know you in any way. And if you do know me? Then tell me who you are. And if you are some how "a friend" Then why are you calling me stupid/dumb? Please if you were my friend I highly doubt you would say that. Now if your not Than please don't waste your time acting like you know me. |
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| 22 Dec 2012 10:23 PM |
Friends are essential to life, seeing as its Christmas, be happy and keep your head up.
Good luck to you.
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