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| 25 Mar 2012 09:42 PM |
This song, for some clarity, is about my three attempts at suicide. It's taken me three years, twenty tries, and multiple conversations with people, but I finally did it.
Three times, this is my life, everybody dies, but nobody knows the price, of a worthless sacrifice. Every moment counts, so own it, make the most of it, you don't get to live twice. So don't waste it, waiting, on a ledge. The curtains not falling, and as the chair drops, I give it my all. And hoist myself out of this, break free of my ropes, then let it all out, in one bursting moment. This is my moment.
I don't want to die, I don't want to lie, It's not worth it. I'm not worthless. So undue the knots, break free of the bonds, right now is the time, so get right to it, go and do it.
I'm swimming against the current, crippled against my weight, of sorrow and pain, I guess I'll laugh it away, laughter heals my wounds, and makes it all better. The pain is less painful, the sorrow is lessened, in every telling, a weight gets lifted, off of my chest. I've broken away. No more hatred, no pain, no more of bad things, I may be broken, and beaten, but I won't break.
I don't want to die. I don't want to lie. It's not worth it, I'm not worthless. So I'll undue my knots, break free of the bonds I set, right now. It's my time.
I wish I was special, I wish I wasn't evil, I wish I wasn't messed up, I wish I hadn't screwed up. I wish I was gifted, I wish I was uplifted. But most of all, I wish I wasn't wishing. I'm so sick of wishing.
We're all special. I'm not evil. I may be messed up, I may have screwed up, But I know everybody's gifted. By some I'm uplifted. Now I'm not wishing. No more wishing.
I'm done, going on. With the life, I've brought on. Today I die. Today I lie, six feet under ground, nobody can help me now.
Those were my thoughts, those were my feelings, but that me is gone now, I'm still healing. But it's for the best, even though I'm worse. And every part of me still hurts.
I won't go. |
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| 25 Mar 2012 09:56 PM |
| Just putting this out there, I am in no way pity hoarding. I just felt so proud over being able to write this that I had to share it. |
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| 26 Mar 2012 02:59 PM |
| Nocturnalcarriage, this wasn't exactly easy to write. |
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| 26 Mar 2012 03:04 PM |
It took you three years to write this...? Or...? e.e
Anyhow. Good work, I guess. But. You need some help, my friend. |
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| 26 Mar 2012 05:39 PM |
I didn't take three years to write this, it took me three years to be able to write this.
I get as much help as possible and needed. |
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| 26 Mar 2012 05:57 PM |
| That was actually pretty good. |
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| 26 Mar 2012 06:01 PM |
| You are very much welcome. |
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| 26 Mar 2012 06:09 PM |
| While reading the lyrics, I imagined it like it was a song performed by a popular band. Anyway, Great Song! |
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| 26 Mar 2012 06:11 PM |
| Thank you. I wrote it to help myself, it was therapeutic. I also wrote it to be inspiring. |
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| 26 Mar 2012 06:13 PM |
| You inspired me to start writing my own song. :u |
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| 26 Mar 2012 06:13 PM |
| Sweet. Post it when you're done. |
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| 26 Mar 2012 07:32 PM |
This song is called Break Apart:
Can't take this anymore. I don't exactly know the score. It's time to change. Time to rearrange. Time to find a part of me I don't know. Time to seek the unknown... Break! Apart.. Everything gotta fall down. Break! Apart... I know I'm not a clown! Break! Apart.. Time to forget all about the start.. If nothing more can begin, I'm going in.. The bets are all down. Time to give me my crown.. The die are cast, I cross to my land, Time to reclaim what I once was, And I'll fight, Till the night collapses. Break! Apart.. Everything gotta fall down. Break! apart... I know I'm not a clown! Break! Apart..... I've finally made a come back. Running on my own track. It's not wrong. I know you won't give me a smack. Running on my own track.. I don't need anything anymore. Now, I think I know the score. My life isn't going to be such a bore.. Anymore... |
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| 26 Mar 2012 07:41 PM |
What's with all you pseudo-musicians thinking you can write lyrics? These songs are just garbage.
Don't even bother anymore, I've never seen someone on this board actually right half-decent lyrics, it's all the same crap over and over again but somehow manages to get worse.
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| 26 Mar 2012 07:47 PM |
| Truth, I know you're just trolling. EVERYBODY HERE, knows you're trolling. |
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| 26 Mar 2012 08:08 PM |
| I understand that suicide is hard to write about. So sorry about that, just my opinion. |
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| 27 Mar 2012 01:28 PM |
| It's alright, hell I know that it could be better. Just pointing out that I usually write better than this. |
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| 27 Mar 2012 01:51 PM |
It's good. It reminds me of something Linkin Park might write. -- •∏åPåLM I∏ †H∑ MØ®∏I∏G• |
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| 27 Mar 2012 06:44 PM |
| @CMB If you're talking about mine, yes, it does look like something by Linkin Park. |
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| 27 Mar 2012 07:33 PM |
| Dude.... That is so AWESOME |
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