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| 21 Sep 2016 12:31 AM |
First off, I would like to say I'm sorry - for what it may still be worth - to anyone I've hit on, or wronged in any way. I would like to ask those of you to take the time to read this.
This started back in 2012, I was still a bit young (like 14..?) and confused about what I wanted to be, and I knew that crossdressing was frowned on and unfortunately brought heavy discrimination, so I decided to fake it for my own benefit to hide from this discrimination and still have a way to be myself, who I wanted. Seemed smart at the time and for a while it was. But that didn't last long.
I didn't anticipate then, that I would make friends. That among those friends I would find someone I love. That among those I would be unable to hold myself and the flirting began. I didn't expect this when it started, and I was always far too scared to say anything when I made a friend because having friends are great, and I didn't want to gross them out. So I stayed silent. I fell further in love and eventually... It grew out of my control. This is recently however..
The first real one was CeciliaLaImperii. Sweet girl, didn't deserve someone like me and always could have shot for far better. I have to thank her for a lot, though. I grew too many unexpected feelings and they were all very real, and I couldn't say no when she wanted to get together. I just couldn't because I wanted to as well.
That unfortunately didn't work and the entire time I felt horrible because of the dark secret that I was too damn scared to tell. Then I met SaskiaDraak.
Now listen, I know she's young - 13 - and please do believe me when I didn't want anything to do with her at first. SHE was very persistent. Always hit me with 'age doesn't matter' or that her sister had been with a guy who was 30. I gave in and decided to give it a chance, but see this time I didn't want to make the same mistake I did with Cecilia. I told Saskia the truth about me, and she seemed perfectly okay with it. It.. grew into something I didn't quite want it to (pictures) with me being the one sending. I never requested any from her, and honestly I was stopping after the first few because I figured it was wrong and possibly encouraged her. My intentions were never bad, but what ended up happening was horrible and I apologize to her for that here and now.
Then suddenly she gets angry with me, over some really silly stuff, and this whole thing starts.. Where she goes to each of my friends, starting with Cecilia, and moving towards my best friend - A_Deer. She personally ruined a few of my friendships and tried to expose me as a "child predator" (I'm really not, js). I didn't let this phase me until I lost A_Deer as a friend. That damaged me on a serious scale.
And A_Deer.. I made the most mistakes with. Every single bit of my friendship with her was very real, just the gender part.. I even hit on her many times because I'm an idiot and I accept that. She matters the most to me - STILL - in my life, and I will never forgive myself for hurting you.
To the people I've wronged personally... A_Deer - I love you and that's never changing, you were the best friend I've ever had and ever will have and every day I stop myself from crying because of how badly I messed up with you. I hope that with me making this thread you can forgive me, because I really want my friend back.
CeciliaLaImperii - You meant a lot to me. My feelings were always real, the relationship was real, I just wish I was real for you. I'm terribly sorry for what I put you through at the end.
SaskiaDraak - I admit, I was foolish. I was dumb, whatever you might call, but I am not a child predator. I made many mistakes with you however, and I apologize for them. I have to say, if anything you helped me in the end, to come up with the courage to make this thread. Aside from taking my best friend from me, you always were the better person.
Epicsparta117 - A world of mistakes here.. But trust that I never had real feelings for you. I was honestly still salty after what you did to Lydia, but I went way too far with it.
Polonium - I know you probably think I'm horrible but look, I never felt anything for you - cause dude, I'm straight - but I didn't know what to say after I was accused of it.
WIJ - yeah yeah save your breaths. You were right from the start.
Some things to note,
I'm 17 and a Senior. Proof can be easily provided if any of you seriously think I'm a pdo.
I'm not quitting ROBLOX. I plan on eventually starting my clan and joining the top groups.
(Posting with my alt because you know how ban happy mods are) |
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| 21 Sep 2016 12:32 AM |
Goodbye Johnny jr!!!
Come break me down |
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| 21 Sep 2016 12:36 AM |
cool
you really made it seem like that and it scared the hell out of me so
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| 21 Sep 2016 12:36 AM |
i'm not even fat IRL legit
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| 21 Sep 2016 12:36 AM |
lol you were bullied out of wij
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| 21 Sep 2016 12:37 AM |
| Polo are we friends again then |
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| 21 Sep 2016 12:38 AM |
Goodbye.
do u want a cookie? |
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| 21 Sep 2016 12:40 AM |
at least he isnt a crossdressing child predator XD
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| 21 Sep 2016 12:41 AM |
| that's a lot o cross dressing |
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| 21 Sep 2016 12:41 AM |
| what a shame i thought this was a quitting thread |
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| 21 Sep 2016 12:41 AM |
| NOTHING IS AS WORSE AS GETTING HAILMARIO EXILED HOPE YOU GO TO HELL |
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| 21 Sep 2016 12:41 AM |
wait taht when was hailmario exiled
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| 21 Sep 2016 12:41 AM |
| So are you a dude or what bro |
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| 21 Sep 2016 12:41 AM |
AND HIS NAME IS JOHNNY CENAAAAAAA du dudu duuuuuu |
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| 21 Sep 2016 12:48 AM |
lmfao
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| 21 Sep 2016 12:49 AM |
I think I deserve an apology
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