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| 15 Jan 2016 06:25 AM |
Over the last few months I was suffering from an eating disorder, and since late November I've been recovering, although I never really took it seriously until I was taken into hospital over Christmas.
At this point not recovering is almost impossible, my parents have to monitor me at all hours (yes, even in the shower, yikes) and I'm not allowed to walk any further than the toilet, and it makes me kind of ashamed to admit, but I want to recover.
I want to recover because I don't want to see people worrying about me anymore, I don't want my parents to have to stick by my side all the time and I want to be able to get out of my chair and help people, but I'm scared of what it means.
At the same time I know recovery means I need to gain weight, and I know that when I have more control I'll be pretty dangerous to myself. Mental health isn't talked about much in recovery, they just tell me to eat and rest and the idea of that still freaks me out, looking in the mirror and not seeing bones anymore freaks me out, I'm not really prepared at all.
Have any of you guys been through a similar thing? Even if you have no idea what I'm talking about, what would you do in this situation? I've tried lightly stretching and fidgeting as a coping mechanism, but that's restricted too and my family caught onto it, so I can't do it as much anymore. |
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| 15 Jan 2016 06:25 AM |
hi i remember you
checkm9 it's christmas time | rip lelforumingalt,add 13k posts plis |
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| 15 Jan 2016 06:28 AM |
tl;dr
In a filthy lagoon, under the sea, behind a wall that is on fire that is where you shall find it. |
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