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| 07 Aug 2015 04:40 AM |
I mean, he'll always tell me off for the little things and sometimes he doesn't even say bye to me before he goes to work or even say "love you" back
And he'll sometimes say how my mum's "spoiled me" and I "can't do anything for myself" and I "break everything I touch"
Tbh I normally just spend my time in my room playing ROBLOX
And I don't just play because it's fun, there's more to it than that, considering the crap I've gone through on this website and the unfair moderations I wouldn't just stay because it's "fun", it's because I want to escape my real life (why else would I roleplay as MARVEL characters and pretend to be a character from my favourite show? I feel more comfortable being someone else in a virtual world than being the loser I am in real life) and my family will constantly leave messes, dump empty plates in the sink and fill all of the bins to the brim and then they'll make me clean all of these messes and if I politely ask them to clean up after themselves they start getting pissy at me and make up all kinds of BS and yell at me
Sometimes I feel like my mum's the only one who ever understands me and even still I'm too scared to tell her when something's wrong (I haven't even told her about my OCD)
And I barely have any friends irl either; I only have like 3 friends I hang out with outside of school
People at my school always make fun of me for any reason they can find; my personality, my appearance, my lack of a social life, my social awkwardness, the way I walk (for some reason I walk quite funny) and I barely have anyone to talk to so I normally vent about my problems on the forums (even people I used to call my best friends, my "friendship group" would make fun of me, ditch me, make plans to hang out WITHOUT me and one time I found out about their cinema plans from someone in that group who's one of my neighbours and a family friend and asked if I was invited so when I said "have fun at the movie" politely in the group chat (the only one i was in, since they had like 11) they pretended I was invited all along, and then pretended to cancel the day before and went without me (the friend who asked if i was invited posted pictures on FB (he's on my close friends list so I got notified on my phone) and when they realised I found out they made up more BS and got him to delete the status (but I got a screenshot as soon as I saw it because I knew they'd try their crap, btw all this was only months ago)
And one time so people in my school made a fake Instagram account and tried to get dirty pics of me by flirting with me and crap (that's actually not cool at all, they've done this to someone else in my year) and I don't even know why they do this crap, I'm an edgelord and a scrub on the forums, I know, but I'm really nice and compassionate irl but people make fun of it, they've said horrible things about my general kindness that would get filtered on here and I'm sick of it
I feel like I'm alone in this world and every girl I ask out rejects me
I can't even get a dog to have as a companion because my mum's allergic, so I don't even have a pet to keep me company, instead we have a small aquarium with some fish in it (and one time my Dad actually yelled at me for feeding them and I accidentally dropped the lid in the tank)I mean, he'll always tell me off for the little things and sometimes he doesn't even say bye to me before he goes to work or even say "love you" back
And he'll sometimes say how my mum's "spoiled me" and I "can't do anything for myself" and I "break everything I touch"
Tbh I normally just spend my time in my room playing ROBLOX
And I don't just play because it's fun, there's more to it than that, considering the crap I've gone through on this website and the unfair moderations I wouldn't just stay because it's "fun", it's because I want to escape my real life (why else would I roleplay as MARVEL characters and pretend to be a character from my favourite show? I feel more comfortable being someone else in a virtual world than being the loser I am in real life) and my family will constantly leave messes, dump empty plates in the sink and fill all of the bins to the brim and then they'll make me clean all of these messes and if I politely ask them to clean up after themselves they start getting pissy at me and make up all kinds of BS and yell at me
Sometimes I feel like my mum's the only one who ever understands me and even still I'm too scared to tell her when something's wrong (I haven't even told her about my OCD)
And I barely have any friends irl either; I only have like 3 friends I hang out with outside of school
People at my school always make fun of me for any reason they can find; my personality, my appearance, my lack of a social life, my social awkwardness, the way I walk (for some reason I walk quite funny) and I barely have anyone to talk to so I normally vent about my problems on the forums (even people I used to call my best friends, my "friendship group" would make fun of me, ditch me, make plans to hang out WITHOUT me and one time I found out about their cinema plans from someone in that group who's one of my neighbours and a family friend and asked if I was invited so when I said "have fun at the movie" politely in the group chat (the only one i was in, since they had like 11) they pretended I was invited all along, and then pretended to cancel the day before and went without me (the friend who asked if i was invited posted pictures on FB (he's on my close friends list so I got notified on my phone) and when they realised I found out they made up more BS and got him to delete the status (but I got a screenshot as soon as I saw it because I knew they'd try their crap, btw all this was only months ago)
And one time so people in my school made a fake Instagram account and tried to get dirty pics of me by flirting with me and crap (that's actually not cool at all, they've done this to someone else in my year) and I don't even know why they do this crap, I'm an edgelord and a scrub on the forums, I know, but I'm really nice and compassionate irl but people make fun of it, they've said horrible things about my general kindness that would get filtered on here and I'm sick of it
I feel like I'm alone in this world and every girl I ask out rejects me
I can't even get a dog to have as a companion because my mum's allergic, so I don't even have a pet to keep me company, instead we have a small aquarium with some fish in it (and one time my Dad actually yelled at me for feeding them and I accidentally dropped the lid in the tank)I mean, he'll always tell me off for the little things and sometimes he doesn't even say bye to me before he goes to work or even say "love you" back
And he'll sometimes say how my mum's "spoiled me" and I "can't do anything for myself" and I "break everything I touch"
Tbh I normally just spend my time in my room playing ROBLOX
And I don't just play because it's fun, there's more to it than that, considering the crap I've gone through on this website and the unfair moderations I wouldn't just stay because it's "fun", it's because I want to escape my real life (why else would I roleplay as MARVEL characters and pretend to be a character from my favourite show? I feel more comfortable being someone else in a virtual world than being the loser I am in real life) and my family will constantly leave messes, dump empty plates in the sink and fill all of the bins to the brim and then they'll make me clean all of these messes and if I politely ask them to clean up after themselves they start getting pissy at me and make up all kinds of BS and yell at me
Sometimes I feel like my mum's the only one who ever understands me and even still I'm too scared to tell her when something's wrong (I haven't even told her about my OCD)
And I barely have any friends irl either; I only have like 3 friends I hang out with outside of school
People at my school always make fun of me for any reason they can find; my personality, my appearance, my lack of a social life, my social awkwardness, the way I walk (for some reason I walk quite funny) and I barely have anyone to talk to so I normally vent about my problems on the forums (even people I used to call my best friends, my "friendship group" would make fun of me, ditch me, make plans to hang out WITHOUT me and one time I found out about their cinema plans from someone in that group who's one of my neighbours and a family friend and asked if I was invited so when I said "have fun at the movie" politely in the group chat (the only one i was in, since they had like 11) they pretended I was invited all along, and then pretended to cancel the day before and went without me (the friend who asked if i was invited posted pictures on FB (he's on my close friends list so I got notified on my phone) and when they realised I found out they made up more BS and got him to delete the status (but I got a screenshot as soon as I saw it because I knew they'd try their crap, btw all this was only months ago)
And one time so people in my school made a fake Instagram account and tried to get dirty pics of me by flirting with me and crap (that's actually not cool at all, they've done this to someone else in my year) and I don't even know why they do this crap, I'm an edgelord and a scrub on the forums, I know, but I'm really nice and compassionate irl but people make fun of it, they've said horrible things about my general kindness that would get filtered on here and I'm sick of it
I feel like I'm alone in this world and every girl I ask out rejects me
I can't even get a dog to have as a companion because my mum's allergic, so I don't even have a pet to keep me company, instead we have a small aquarium with some fish in it (and one time my Dad actually yelled at me for feeding them and I accidentally dropped the lid in the tank)I mean, he'll always tell me off for the little things and sometimes he doesn't even say bye to me before he goes to work or even say "love you" back
And he'll sometimes say how my mum's "spoiled me" and I "can't do anything for myself" and I "break everything I touch"
Tbh I normally just spend my time in my room playing ROBLOX
And I don't just play because it's fun, there's more to it than that, considering the crap I've gone through on this website and the unfair moderations I wouldn't just stay because it's "fun", it's because I want to escape my real life (why else would I roleplay as MARVEL characters and pretend to be a character from my favourite show? I feel more comfortable being someone else in a virtual world than being the loser I am in real life) and my family will constantly leave messes, dump empty plates in the sink and fill all of the bins to the brim and then they'll make me clean all of these messes and if I politely ask them to clean up after themselves they start getting pissy at me and make up all kinds of BS and yell at me
Sometimes I feel like my mum's the only one who ever understands me and even still I'm too scared to tell her when something's wrong (I haven't even told her about my OCD)
And I barely have any friends irl either; I only have like 3 friends I hang out with outside of school
People at my school always make fun of me for any reason they can find; my personality, my appearance, my lack of a social life, my social awkwardness, the way I walk (for some reason I walk quite funny) and I barely have anyone to talk to so I normally vent about my problems on the forums (even people I used to call my best friends, my "friendship group" would make fun of me, ditch me, make plans to hang out WITHOUT me and one time I found out about their cinema plans from someone in that group who's one of my neighbours and a family friend and asked if I was invited so when I said "have fun at the movie" politely in the group chat (the only one i was in, since they had like 11) they pretended I was invited all along, and then pretended to cancel the day before and went without me (the friend who asked if i was invited posted pictures on FB (he's on my close friends list so I got notified on my phone) and when they realised I found out they made up more BS and got him to delete the status (but I got a screenshot as soon as I saw it because I knew they'd try their crap, btw all this was only months ago)
And one time so people in my school made a fake Instagram account and tried to get dirty pics of me by flirting with me and crap (that's actually not cool at all, they've done this to someone else in my year) and I don't even know why they do this crap, I'm an edgelord and a scrub on the forums, I know, but I'm really nice and compassionate irl but people make fun of it, they've said horrible things about my general kindness that would get filtered on here and I'm sick of it
I feel like I'm alone in this world and every girl I ask out rejects me
I can't even get a dog to have as a companion because my mum's allergic, so I don't even have a pet to keep me company, instead we have a small aquarium with some fish in it (and one time my Dad actually yelled at me for feeding them and I accidentally dropped the lid in the tank) |
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| 07 Aug 2015 04:42 AM |
| I can't stop being depressed, I've had the worst day at school today. AND IT'S FRIDAY. |
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| 07 Aug 2015 04:51 AM |
| Isn't it supposed to be holidays ? I mean, it's summer. |
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