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| 01 Jun 2015 10:24 PM |
You can call me Xenos, I don't know where else to post this, so I'll let tons of little kids see this post.
I'm a 13 year old kid, I have been thinking about my future a lot and I just can't think of what's next. I've been trying to find a future that I want to happen, but I can't be original enough then thinking of what I want to happen.
When I grow up I want to travel, like any other person, that's a original idea, but how do you make money if you never want to have a home and keep traveling?
Maybe I want to go into skateboarding, I could get a deal off of making videos off of Youtube and one day get money off of doing what I love to do, but what if nobody likes what I do, how long does it take, will anybody like my skateboarding?
All of these things seem like they have a thing that could go out, maybe I can travel and skateboard. Than I'd have a job and I could travel.
I'm afraid of the fame though, you are a target against everybody, they want your fame, they don't think your good enough, they don't want you to be good enough. They just don't want you, and what if you want to go back, you can't, your always a image to people and you will never have a normal simple life.
I feel like I need to have any kind of fame, even if I'm a Viner who's milking off of memes just to somehow get money. I feel like I have to have fame. I spent one day on a brand new vine account and got 10,000 loops in one day. It's like people want to see me.
If you have ever seen the movie, The Truman Show, I feel like my life is like that, like I'm always being watched. Like when I want to try fame everybody want to get on board with it.
Now, a few years back I found out I was abnormally smart, like straight A's in school not even trying. I could take in information and memorize it like crazy, and I hated it because I couldn't find friends who just wanted to have fun, they were always like, HOMEWORK HOMEWORK HOMEWORK :). I hated it so much.
This year from year 14-15, I tried to act like I was terrible in school to everybody and I wasn't that smart, even worse I started believing I wasn't smart, my grades dropped and people just thought I was dumb, and I liked it.
I found a group of friends that I liked and they were funny. We always did dumb things and it made me feel like, I had adventure in life. It was the travel that I wanted and longed for.
I will post a part two to this, I don't know if there is a limit for these forums, I don't know, leave a reply on your thought I guess. & |
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adambenn
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| 01 Jun 2015 10:25 PM |
| I was in your shoes before. I'm going off to college now and still don't know what I want to do. |
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Epiccaik
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Julisa159
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| 01 Jun 2015 10:35 PM |
| You put a lot of thought into that... damn... I planned out my life a while ago... but now all I see is a "note" and a grave. |
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Vikie09
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| 01 Jun 2015 10:36 PM |
| I feel your pain and conflict. I am a senior in high school currently and have no idea what I want with life. I'm smart and have the grades and extracurricular to show for, but yet I am dissatisfied with every suggestion at what I should do next. |
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Epiccaik
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