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| 07 May 2015 09:25 PM |
| I've been looking at people like they're lesser than me. I don't see people like people anymore, its like they're simply objects. It bothers me constantly, and I seem to have gotten more angry for it too, and the anger is constantly directed at myself, and expressed through my failures. I take no pleasure in this sport, its boring and taking me down a path I don't wish to go on. Yet I have no choice. |
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| 07 May 2015 09:25 PM |
"have no choice"
what, you can't quit? |
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| 07 May 2015 09:26 PM |
| No. My mother keeps a close eye on me and has ties with the coach. I can't do anything, and I'm becoming a narcissistic monster. |
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Slydexia
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| 07 May 2015 09:27 PM |
| I am sincerely concerned about you and I believe you should quit track. If anything matters the most, it's your mental being and it must be stable. |
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| 07 May 2015 09:27 PM |
Quitting a sport is relatively hard...
You cant just say
"this sport is boring. I quit" no....
You belong to a team and you have to support them till the end of the season. |
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| 07 May 2015 09:27 PM |
| Fracture your leg or something if you really have to do something like that to not run anymore |
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| 07 May 2015 09:29 PM |
@ Medically
I considered it, and as much as I want to, I saw them make someone with a fractured leg still do stuff, contrary to medical expert advise by their doctor. |
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| 07 May 2015 09:30 PM |
| I still don't see how this is making you see people as "less". Explain |
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| 07 May 2015 09:34 PM |
@Medically
After the hours of running I've had to do, the pain and the sweat, I look at others and think "Wow, look at them, they don't do anything with their life. They're useless, and for what I've done I'm better then them, all of them." And end up hating myself for that train of thought, but its continuous. |
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| 07 May 2015 09:35 PM |
| If you think it's affecting your relationships with others and your health tell a parent or parents |
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| 07 May 2015 09:36 PM |
| OP I suggest you look into individualism |
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| 07 May 2015 09:36 PM |
@Medically
She wouldn't care. She considers it my calling and praises me more than my brother or sister for it. |
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