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| 01 Jan 2015 12:01 AM |
Been awhile since I had to walk into this scene. I couldn't tell you guys what my last one of these was about, but what I can tell you, is that this is the last one. But before I get too deep within my words, I must admit that my disappearance of an 8 or 9 month timespan may have put me out of the limelight. So allow me to reintroduce myself;
I am Slasher. FEAR's oldest veteran.
To be technical in the statement, I have been here since day 1. Or rather, day 3. FEAR was created January 31st, 2010. I join February 3rd, the same year. To put this into perspective, the man we all know as Zach2222, He joined 4 days after me, and is FEAR's 2nd oldest veteran. I have watched every event in FEAR history unfold both before me, and through word of mouth. I have been to every corner of FEAR's system. I have been at the top of the ladder, I've been in exile, I've managed more than many could possibly comprehend, I have led rebellions. And today, I've come to... Talk, as I always have had a liking in doing.
I'd first like to state something. This is me speaking from my evolved perspective. All of my past "works" have been me speaking as the Veteran. The solider. The edgy little child that has stuck with this clan for almost 5 years now. That's longer than some of you have had sentience. But today I'm going to be stating my opinions in the form of FEAR's worst enemy; The Outsider. The person who has experienced both FEAR and pastures greater.
Despite me basically going missing when I was thrown out of HCOM, I have kept an ear to FEAR's door for the duration of my away time. I have been getting news of the events that have unfolded in FEAR over the past couple months, And i can't say I'm too fond of some of the things I have heard. My last involvement in FEAR was ironically enough, me being apart of a group that almost took over FEAR. But I'm sure, knowing the bulk of the HCOM, none of you were ever actually made aware of that. If any of you are aware of the Unclear situation, I was a big part of that. If you are not aware, I am not obligated to educate you at this time.
But enough about me. I'd rather not stick to the topic of myself when this is supposed to be about you guys. I'll start off by stating or confirming some things said by an old acquaintance of mine, Beloxy;
He is correct in his statement that some of us are going to be leaving FEAR behind in the next 24 hours. I am one of them. I am writing this post with their voices in my heart, as I am the only one left with the willpower to do so. They all dont care about FEAR anymore. I say this with utmost honesty. However, I will honor their decisions and not name a soul.
He is also correct in that SHADOW is finding interest in fixing FEAR. Or rather this is an image that people believe SHADOW is putting forth. But here's the thing, Soldiers; SHADOW is 3 years late. These problems have been evolving from within FEAR for years now, yet SONIC, SHADOW, most of the HCOM, has never had the knowledge, willpower, or experience to fix any of these issues. And now they finally start to realize their terrible mistakes. But its already too late for their determined souls. We've passed the point of no return..
I apologize, I am speaking too negatively.
I'd like to go over a few of the points that Beloxy made. An inactive majority of the HCOM, and Officer base, for one.
The officer base in FEAR right now is nothing compared to what it used to be. The officers used to be people that had the best of their times in FEAR, while also contributing just as much, if not MORE, than the HCOM. The Officers used to be FEAR's heart, FEAR's outing image. When someone looked at FEAR, the Officers gave the impression of a good time. Not excellence, but a good time. And now? Both from the HCOM and the Officers I have deep connections with, all I hear is misery. All I hear is a mass of people all begging for a release from the stress, from the faulty systems. They are disappointed, they are tired of the bulk of the HCOM being so dysfunctional, so incapable of redeeming the beauty that FEAR used to be. And when they speak their minds? They HCOM thinks it as a REBELLION.
And a lack of communication within the HCOM? Bel, you're one of the best HRs, but that is the stupidest understatement I have ever read. Let me give you guys an example. Remember our old Director of War, Ril? Wanna know why she left? Sickthunderkiller and his stupidity. You people are crediting this man on how much he benefits you people, when few of you realize hes actually an idiot. Time and time again he tried to control the department of war, often making decisions without Ril's approval. And those exact actions are why she ended up leaving. None of you would believe the amount of fury and regret that came out of her on that night. And that doesn't even mention the amount of corrupt schemes and general ignorance and inability to act that I have also heard from within the HCOM over the last 8 months.
And how does your HCOM react? They replace her, they make no visible effort to look into why she left or regret their decisions. They treat their fellow HRs are replaceable management. Sure, Ace is a competent person for the position that he has been given; him and I go way back, but it doesn't change the fact of how HCOM decided to handle the situation.
And.. just... Sigh. This is what you people look like from the outside. This is the image the HCOM tries so hard to hide from you, soldiers. I am not saying they are all trash, consumed by inner demons. I am simply saying that there is little hope for FEAR if this is the way things are managed, if the chain of command goes so long believing that it is acceptable to ignore issues that tear this clan apart and turn is veterans and new allies alike against one another!
...I shall restate.. I speak for those on the outside. Those who have lost hope. And at this point, I believe myself to be one of them. All of us, myself included, have found little reason to have any further relations with FEAR other than the strong friendships we have developed over these 5 long years. And I now struggle to end this off in some way, 12 paragraphs in.
I want to believe that there's some form redemption for FEAR, but my deepest, delusional parts of my heart can't even find the most pathetic of reasons to keep clawing at the idea that there is hope for people like me, so I'll just have to end this on the... Sudden node.
I am Slasher. We are FEAR's oldest veterans. And although it pains us to say this, goodbyes may have to be said. It's an unfortunate fate, but this is our combined choice. |
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Aphex2
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| 01 Jan 2015 12:24 AM |
| cya slasher! - joshiimoshii |
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ZaggerII
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| 01 Jan 2015 12:35 AM |
| That was well written! I applaud you for writing all that. It's very interesting to read as well. Anyways, we'll miss you Slasher... |
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1roy999
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| 01 Jan 2015 12:38 AM |
| Slasher, i've tried voicing my opinions that the new officer core is bad, and that people like sickthunderkiller shouldnt be a high rank |
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SilentHD
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SwitchOff
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| 01 Jan 2015 01:40 AM |
Don't worry, Slash...
Going to leave too if SHADOW can't do what he's supposed to do |
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| 01 Jan 2015 01:45 AM |
WOAH WOAH WOAH WOAH. Sickthunderkiller and his stupidity? Rilie chose to ran War department on her own and her goon Islaykids called out Sick anytime he got. and he convinced other officers to think that sick is power hungry
Without sick, FEAR's EA department would've been dead. Andrew couldn't do anything but sit on his ass and just let it rot.
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Disav0w
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| 01 Jan 2015 01:46 AM |
| Yes, Killer, but even I know about Sicks attempts to do his acts in the War department unfortunately. |
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Disav0w
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| 01 Jan 2015 01:47 AM |
| To add on to that, the kick he did to Islay for voicing out only and giving construcconstructive criticism. |
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| 01 Jan 2015 01:54 AM |
Criticism isn't calling somebody out as power-hungry and trying to ruin his reputation in the clan he worked harder in than him and even the 2iC altogether. If here were to criticize he would've not been a complete tool about it.
/k5VRMt8 although this is petty I'm sure he's found more ways to call out and "criticize" sick. it's 'tard nation born/raised idiot assmonkeys like islay that stop FEAR from being better when somebody is trying to strengthen departments |
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scilz
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Disav0w
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| 01 Jan 2015 02:12 AM |
| That Power Hungry calling was after Islay was booted for constructive criticism, and was witnessing what was happening to Rilie, Killer. |
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Disav0w
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| 01 Jan 2015 02:14 AM |
| Hence, what Slasher was going on about in him trying to do what he was doing in war, and I was aware of those plans. And I was not even a fan of it, I was on Rilie's side of letting her handle her department alone. |
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| 01 Jan 2015 03:26 AM |
| You and I we're never exactly friends during my time in FEAR, but I do agree you get a different perspective when you aren't a high rank. |
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| 01 Jan 2015 04:38 AM |
R.I.P. Disav0w.
Booo. Sick. |
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| 01 Jan 2015 05:03 AM |
I predicted this would happen a long time ago...now it's a reality.
As an Officer and HCOM many people would know I complained, a LOT. One of the complaints which I kept repeating was FEAR's state. I groaned, I shouted, I screamed. But funnily enough people always told me to shut up and be quiet, stating that I was being dramatic and incorrect.
Unfortunately that's pretty much all I can do, complain and hope people actually listen. I can't build or script any new facilities for us, I can't complain about an inactive person if everyone is their friend because they just ignore me. And that really sucks because I feel so useless.
A few days ago I finally decided to give it one last shot as I panicked, seeing people wanting to retire. I ran a huge announcement event on my own and asked everyone their own opinions on these big issues. The chat literally exploded as everyone shouted their opinion, most were agreeing with me. After dismissing this I went to SHADOW as I saw him with WickedMemory and I sat down with him and explained properly to him what was going on and that we need to fix it. SHADOW was eager and he acknowledged me, hosting his own large Q&A for everyone to get opinions on FEAR.
I've had many complaints about this being "another false hope" as people have claimed to have seen this before, this shows how dire the situation is. Funnily enough when I complained to the rest of HCOM about it, they pretty much shut me up again stating that FEAR is fine and isn't nearing any end.
I was offered a place in another group and got asked to retire with these guys that had a set date. I refused to retire until FEAR was truly finished. There's still hope for FEAR, but it all rests on what's happens from here. Will they sort things out after seeing people's opinions and complaints? Or will we just stand idle as always, just hosting events from time to time?
I don't know, but I'm still holding on. There's still a flicker of hope.
-F.E.A.R. General & Chief of Police, SonicSimon
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| 01 Jan 2015 05:14 AM |
If high ranks don't realize the issues in FEAR, we obviously know what's up. I would not have the guts to do this as a high rank, because it was all for the power.
The reason most of the administration of FEAR doesn't want to admit the issue is because they know something will need to be changed. For that to occur, a lot of people might lose their ranks and their influence. So obviously most high ranks are happy where they are.
SONIC, especially in this state, needs to take control himself. It's obvious most high ranks will do anything to keep their power, (I'm being hypocritical, I would too) so those high ranks should...maybe not get demoted...but seriously be reconsidered. He's a great person, and he probably has awesome ideas, but he never uses them because the high ranks swallow him.
Officers have some great ideas, talk to them! Also talk to low ranks.
If high ranks continue to sit idle, because they don't like change, then your digging yourself into a grave.
Is their even arguments at FEAR meetings anymore? People keep saying "Debate is bad! Stop arguing". I used to agree...but debate gets things done. If you don't like an idea created by the SiC, or TiC, or some superior say something about it. Don't be afraid of consequence.
alright goodluckguys |
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| 01 Jan 2015 05:44 AM |
| SHADOW is doing a good job with the issues. I suggested to him that trainings need to be more strict, and that's exactly what happened. |
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| 01 Jan 2015 06:12 AM |
| Even officers are inactive. I only see a few of them actually hosting. |
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Zenthial
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| 01 Jan 2015 07:17 AM |
| By Slasher. I never met you, but the stories told of great things. |
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