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| 23 May 2014 11:52 PM |
But i'd have to say that genuinely OT has staved off depression and potentially, in a way, saved my life. I doubt any of you would guess me, and i damned don't want you to or I would've used a main for this, but honestly this is something i have to get off of my chest some way or another.
I've been, from around when I was 12 or 13, extremely depressed about life, and over the years those pesky thoughts to harm others and myself come up more often now, usually several per day. I've been more paranoid and desperate in an escape of this feeling, and have done things that have harbored "bad attention" to me as a consequence. It's only been getting worse.
OT has somewhat helped me, believe it or not. It gets my thoughts off of the subject and kinda has helped me improve my social life, though i've harmed so many people here. Though my parents see my apparent addiction into OT as a bad thing, i have relied on it which is why i've spent far too much time here. I don't know what path i would've took without OT or another likewise timesink. I might be dead for the hell I know.
I'm not saying this in a way for you to pity me, but I just want to know despite me harassing you over the years, you've helped me dearly. |
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| 23 May 2014 11:54 PM |
>ot saving lives >when'd this ever happen
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| 23 May 2014 11:54 PM |
| If you wanted to know more, because I'm not really done getting this off of my chest, I'm probably a filthy aspie like the lot of you and have been living a hypocritical lie if such. I have literally all of the symptoms for it, and yet my parents somewhat refuse to get it evaluated. Though it would solve absolutely nothing if I knew I had the assburgers or some other useless mental disease (e.g. depression, bipolar, you name it), it would give me a little bit of clarity in my life. |
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| 23 May 2014 11:55 PM |
">when'd this ever happen"
if u read the thread |
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| 23 May 2014 11:56 PM |
| I'm glad we helped you, even if just a little bit :) |
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| 23 May 2014 11:56 PM |
| I'm of course saying all of this seemingly nonsensical crap because I had a bout around ten minutes ago and it's my way of telling OT without telling OT |
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| 23 May 2014 11:58 PM |
i need to know who op is time 4 detective work
hecka rad |
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| 23 May 2014 11:59 PM |
"i need to know who op is time 4 detective work"
You know, I did this on a completely unaffiliated alt on purpose. |
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| 24 May 2014 12:30 AM |
| this makes me feel good, even though i'm a big smelly newbag |
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| 24 May 2014 12:33 AM |
| Everyone copes with stresses in there own way, OT might just be your coping mechanism. |
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