GustFlame
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| 26 Mar 2014 01:13 AM |
I don’t know where to start.
When I first started the Gladium, I made it out of the loss of the Dominion. I wanted it to be a group full of my friends and what I could call my family again. Another goal I had for the Gladium was to make it a little like TGI.
I have always been a fan of the former TGI Community. I thought it was one of the greatest things I joined. The Teamspeak was never inactive. Everything about TGI was amazing and I hoped for it to continue as that. Unfortunately, it didn’t as I thought it would.
So, TSD. Obtention was first a good leader until he completely turned into an idiot towards the end. TSD was going in the right direction because I was better as that co-leader than the leader I am today. I have always been known as that type of person to kill morale and yell at people during raids. People were peaceful and enjoying things when I wasn’t talking those few days it seemed like because I had no voice from my “problem.”
I came across a thread today made by DarkKroaton where he had said he won’t be rejoining us. Today he had apparently (according to Shattered) told shattered not to worry about TSG and be active in VAC. DarkKroaton was once one of the people I had looked at as a true brother and relied on for a lot of things. We had a desirable respect for the guy in TSD. I’ve never met someone so loyal.
I wanted that one victory at SMO so I asked him to raid on an alt, but he defended against us worse yet. I realize Vaktovia before all now. VAK has always followed by that policy. But it’s taking away people that I care about. TSG is one of those clans I and so many people would like to see up there. I’m in the way. I’ve constantly made decisions disregarding TheHeroOfBrine and I’ve definitely had a lot of outrage in this group. I wanted things to be perfect.
Hero and I foresee TSG to be one of those clans that would last awhile. We’re not wrong.
TSG is in no way near downspout and will not die anytime soon. It will degrade, it degraded BADLY during that League of Slaughter stuff, and picked back up afterwards when I had given a speech regarding it. Morale booster and killer all in one I guess.
After almost two months of being around we can rally over a hundred people with a days notice and get 20+ people to spars. We have one of the most active teamspeaks during the day as a clan, and we aren’t one of those clans who have a “raiding blacklist.” We retaliate when a clan gets a victory at our base and will not stop raiding the opposition until victory is ours. One. They can win at our base again and we know that we won at theirs no matter how unfair.
We have over 5 dozen victories at TRA’s base, two dozen at VS and RAT, a dozen at FEAR. Most of the clans we have had bad affiliations with in raids have become our allies.
I feel if as I hold this clan back. I have lost people like DarkKroaton, gagaohoh1515, GunRights, and I didn’t know if I was going to lose Shattered or InstantImpact. I have been really down in the ditches lately… Someone told me if I were to go and share myself to people and talk to others about my problems it would make things easier for me. I speak only the slightest bit:
I’m not okay. Mixed with RL issues and my undying care for this group, I have been really sad lately. The type of sad that can make you do dumb things. The RL issues are a big thing for me. I’ve had them in Sleet Clan and almost similar. It’s so odd that when I’m in that frame of glory or leading again the worst things in reality hit me back in the face. I’ve made dumb decisions that severely injured me.
It isn’t all about a game to me. Some of the things I’ve realized since I left New Jersey and had to move to Florida is I don’t enjoy reality as I used to. I don’t even play sports as much as I used to, and I have put most of my time on this game. It means a lot to me.
I miss the original people I had. Those people like DarkKroaton who left or even jijibo who I rarely see as much. I even miss aqous, or Castellnus, SecondHokage, LordMayham… You don’t see those die hard loyal members like in your ordinary group, you know.
I don’t know what I’m doing. I rejoined leading because I wanted to have fun. This isn’t me leaving anything, not giving up, this is me stuck in a spot I’ve been at for a week. Stuck or not it does not stop TSG from persevering or me from leading it. It has only saddened me more and more… Just for it to lower every now and then with those laughs on Teamspeak.
Those sudden thoughts I get is when I’m alone, and doing nothing. The reason I don’t leave to the Brenan Lion Den as often is because I fear being remembered of my unfold’s actions.
I’m sorry, honestly. I’m sorry DarkKroaton. Man, I cannot ever forget what you did for me, and your services. Valaxo? I was pissed today. I didn’t mean that. You did awesome in TSG. The people I may have been a jerk to. I could even apologize to Dimste but I doubt he even cares for me anymore. TRA… I am in no position to call you guys out. I didn’t agree with what Gigazic did, but I didn’t mean to hate on you.
And those people like Liz, Brandon, Jordan, David, Erik, people on TSG TS3. The people who helped me when I was sad. I can’t thank you enough. People who tried to help, you guys too. Sorry if I seemed hapless.
I don’t want TSG to die. It doesn’t deserve to die. It won’t. Just know that I need you guys. Every. Single. One.
I’d try to say the old fashion war cry at this point, but I would guess there is no room for patriotic quotes right now. I am not beyond repair, I am just slowly healing from what was kept behind the scenes. At least now you know what’s wrong with me.
As always, I love my Artillians. Stay that way.
Thanks for everything thus far. |
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| 26 Mar 2014 01:14 AM |
You're about to start a huge flame war.
Again.. |
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Swordize
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ZAydxn
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Blazzed
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| 26 Mar 2014 01:16 AM |
| Yes bring on the flamers let us burn them :) |
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GustFlame
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| 26 Mar 2014 01:16 AM |
I honestly also wanna say that I left TAG after that raid because I thought so much about not involving myself in a war with RAA again.
Sasook wanted to help TSG originally. Sasook told me TSG didn't turn out like he think it would.
~The Steel Sovereign~ |
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Kedabra
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| 26 Mar 2014 01:16 AM |
| Actually, you FIRST first started TSG after your loss of Sleet Clan or whatever the heck happened... Remember New Monroe? |
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GustFlame
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| 26 Mar 2014 01:18 AM |
I'm talking about this generation.
It's funny. I was going to call this group something else. Somewhat wish I had.
~The Steel Sovereign~ |
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| 26 Mar 2014 01:19 AM |
Glory to Artillia!
May we live long in prosper!
Stay strong, Gust. You can pull through.
Sign up and have BEEZCare today! |
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are31
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| 26 Mar 2014 01:19 AM |
| I think Gust sold my firebrand I let him borrow for this clan. |
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Basketor
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| 26 Mar 2014 01:20 AM |
| No one ever cares about basket |
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GustFlame
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| 26 Mar 2014 01:21 AM |
Guess not.
~The Steel Sovereign~ |
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Kedabra
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| 26 Mar 2014 01:21 AM |
"It's funny. I was going to call this group something else. Somewhat wish I had."
Eh, when I first joined this new generation, I had gained a sense of pride from knowing I was what one would call a first generation Artillian. So, on a personal note it wasn't all that bad. :P |
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Inductive
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| 26 Mar 2014 01:21 AM |
| If you want to better server your group, you probably know that your emotions and thoughts need to become more stable. Constantly sad is unacceptable. |
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Roullette
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| 26 Mar 2014 01:22 AM |
| calm the calamity that is your mammories |
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GustFlame
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| 26 Mar 2014 01:23 AM |
Actually, Inductive.
I can be happy at times. Like I said, when I'm alone.
~The Steel Sovereign~ |
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| 26 Mar 2014 01:23 AM |
Keep at it, Dan.
I'll be here.
We all will. |
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Basketor
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| 26 Mar 2014 01:24 AM |
| Gust why don't you like me |
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GustFlame
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| 26 Mar 2014 01:24 AM |
Never said that
~The Steel Sovereign~ |
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are31
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Basketor
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| 26 Mar 2014 01:26 AM |
"I can be happy at times, especially when I'm alone."
To break the seriousness of this post, I took that in more ways than one. |
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ZAydxn
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| 26 Mar 2014 01:26 AM |
| Oh and best of luck with your RL issues Gust, I'm sure you'll pull through, and anyone who says that TSG won't be the greatest clan on Roblox are just Jelly. Best of luck Gust! |
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