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| 14 Aug 2013 10:18 PM |
Not because I'm going back to school, if anything I'm somewhat excited.
It's that I just get a bit depressed because I am getting older.
Like, going into grades and thinking back to when you were a kid and how big someone was, and now your that someones age and look at how small you really are. Not only that it's depressing because every single grade it seems reality grasps you little by little, like in 3rd grade, how all I cared about was cereal and pokemon... Having such innocence was bliss... It's usually that point where you care less about simple stuff like pokemon and more about how people think about you... I honestly dread the day when I get my high school diploma, I know it will be nice to have my own house by then, and some freedoms... But, I'll know I've lost the innocence of childhood... How the wonder in your life is replaced by reality, that those wonders were just simply lies. Like, Christmas, I love the atmosphere, I get so excited... But lately when Christmas rolled around it just seemed I wasn't that excited anymore. I don't know... little things I may have caught about myself... How I've become a bit duller. I hate it that every year my happiness just, slips away a bit...
It's such a depressing thought I think about sometimes, how time passes and there is nothing you can do about it no matter how much you would like it to stop... Like 2 seconds ago, I'll never get that moment in time back... It seems to just go too fast...
It's funny actually, how sometimes I reminisce about a day when I was around 5-6 sitting at my table eating peanut butter toast... I don't know why I remember that moment so vividly... Maybe it was just because I was so happy... I didn't think much of it at the time but I had everything I could ever want then... Now as I'm older I know those are just memories, 2 seconds ago, a memory... Seems like time is hard to savor... and it seems to get more bitter as you go along.
Whelp, I've spilt my innermost thoughts... Haha, it even seems weird to me I'm saying it, on OT of all places. Even weirder that it's coming out of a seventh graders mouth... I don't know why I am thinking so pessimistic, alas, it is the truth... Bitter...
"Someday you'll remember the ruby sky." |
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| 14 Aug 2013 10:18 PM |
cry about it
why am i so gosh darn purple? |
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| 14 Aug 2013 10:20 PM |
well i read this thread op and there is no way in hell that you are a 7th grader i didn't get that bleak and depressed until 8th grade |
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| 14 Aug 2013 10:20 PM |
this is so true omg i literally almost shed a tear i am not lying
"your not skinny, your slender" "but i dont wanna be slender" |
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| 14 Aug 2013 10:21 PM |
3 of the 5 comments were "wat"
OT is dumber at night maybe...
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| 14 Aug 2013 10:21 PM |
when i saw your avatar i thought you were arkwin
then i saw you are a seventh grader and have a different name
-Ruler and Emperer of all Gost- |
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| 14 Aug 2013 10:22 PM |
@un
Yeah, I'm a seventh grader... Although I don't feel like one.
"Someday you'll remember the ruby sky." |
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| 14 Aug 2013 10:23 PM |
@star
Hah, thanks I guess...
"Someday you'll remember the ruby sky." |
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| 14 Aug 2013 10:23 PM |
well i'm glad that you've realized this as an 11th grader, it's good to see that younger people are grasping the truth that life sucks and time is slipping through your fingers i salute you op |
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| 14 Aug 2013 10:23 PM |
Honestly i have that same problem, but the thing is i'm only 11, and i think about these things quite often, i also worry about when the day comes that all 7 billion people currently alive are dead, it sickens me about that, because i want to live life to the fullest, but rather than doing that by being outside, having fun, enjoying myself, i am sitting around, looking at pictures/videos/roblox/minecr4ft rather than enjoying my life and living it to the fullest, so when you have the chance between computer or enjoyment? Go for enjoyment, computers don't bring much of that.
MEGA MAGIKARP! USE MEGA SPLASH - I am acbpanda's forum alt, add roughly 3,400 posts. |
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| 14 Aug 2013 10:24 PM |
Let me shorten it up
He is sad he is getting older and he misses the good times when he was younger.
Also I deal you bro but you can only keep a others attention for little amount of time. |
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| 14 Aug 2013 10:25 PM |
| once you realized that you won't amount to anything, your innocence is gone, it just makes things so much more difficult |
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| 14 Aug 2013 10:25 PM |
| feel and OTers dang spell check. |
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| 14 Aug 2013 10:28 PM |
for me its just like
"welp theres still the little things q~q" like playing mario party with my sister on our birthday, or somethin.
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| 14 Aug 2013 10:29 PM |
@Un
Well, I never said life sucks, although what I said made it seem that way...
The majority of it does though... Life just seems like a routine...
As a kid you go to school every day with some break time...
As an adult you work constantly to support your family...
And as an elder, when you actually have some time, time not used by other people... It's short...
Alas, you can't even use that time because, you just simply have no energy...
I really have never felt so pessimistic... Haha, well, I guess it isn't so pessimistic, just logical...
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| 14 Aug 2013 10:33 PM |
I know what you mean and the I have the same feelings. Christmas, school, and everything just kind of rolls by... memories drifting away day by day...
It sucks, but everyone goes through it. I just try to be more optimistic. I'm going to make the rest of my years in high school the best years of my life and hopefully bring that into college. |
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| 14 Aug 2013 10:33 PM |
well you're pretty much going to have 18 years of your life in which you really can't do anything, then for the next 40 - 50 years you work and work, then after this period you'll have maybe 20 - 30 years of what you'd like and then you die that's just a depressing reality
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| 14 Aug 2013 10:33 PM |
Yeah, the little things. Now playing kids games is shunned upon...
Seems all that interests kids my age is whatever the hell is on the bandwagon...
I have interests in space, like we are all part of something bigger than ourselves... I may have lost wonder and happiness from being a kid but... Some things don't cease to fascinate me still...
"Someday you'll remember the ruby sky." |
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| 14 Aug 2013 10:38 PM |
Yet, even if time goes onward I have to use it...
Can't sit back and think pessimistic thoughts all day...
Even if I do find false comfort in memories, they are memories...
And I guess those won't get me too far...
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| 14 Aug 2013 10:41 PM |
| I just live life day by day, one step at a time. There's no reason to get depressed from memories! Life is a beautiful thing and those moments you remember will always be with you. Live for today and tomorrow. You haven't even made it out of high school! You have SO much ahead of you to live for! |
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