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| 02 Apr 2013 12:10 PM |
I figured the only serious thing I've posted in months deserved a EPIC TROLE title, so excuse that.
I've just been having some thoughts lately about this game. Regardless of how much I can speak ill of it, I cannot deny the impact it has had on me. While some people can go on about how silly such a thing would be considering it is just a game, these same people would fail to notice how much more complicated it is than that.
Do you know why people will never make a big deal of quitting most single player games? Why, the answer is right there. It is single player.
It is not the game that one becomes attached to, per se. It is the interactions within it. And that is what I miss, to be honest.
It was an output for creativity. Where I lacked as a leader and as a person I made up for in my drive to see what was in my mind come to life, a drive I always hope to have for any future endeavors.
The thing is I will likely never return. This community tends to throw aside what good they get... and truly, I cannot blame them. Not everyone wants the same thing, and very little actually truly want what I gave - that, aside from the generally hostile attitude of the community, is what lead me to quit.
People can be 'not so good'. Give that person a keyboard and you will ruin the day of everyone that person comes into contact with. Such were my days. One million voices of praise can be silenced by one of sharp criticism. Give that critic power and your entire experience is ruined.
If you knew me around 2009/Early 2010, you would easily tell I was an entirely different person. As RAT took a more 'artistic' turn, I took a more sour one. Was 15 and antisocial when I first lead RAT. This lead to mistakes. A lot of them. Had I been a lesser person in terms of creativity it would have failed.
But it didn't. Somehow I managed to do things right and remain relevant. I suppose it wasn't hard considering the dismal state of superclans when I first signed on board.
It honestly became the best experience of my life, to be honest. Looking back on it still brings me a fond warmness. I had always thought I would be sickened when looking back after I quit, sickened in the sense that I had lost it all. But such a feeling never came. No, if anything, I appreciate it more. Strange phenomenons like that were all too common.
The experience was new and fresh. I had capacity to do good and the drive to actually go forward with it. A drive I lost when the experience quickly became me logging on to be spoken ill of on C&G, talked down to by other clans, and needing to mediate another internal conflict between two HRs going at it. I always assumed I'd one day just give up and get rid of the clan in a fit of anger... but again, such a thing never happened.
Instead I just let myself drift away from the community, finally pulling the plug around Thanksgiving 2012. I made a joke when I gave CJ the clan as a Thanksgiving present to C&G. "Thanks for Giving me a migraine daily, Roblox."
Though I like to say I don't have time to do this stuff anymore, I usually am inflating the problem.. significantly. I do have the time, I just spend it elsewhere. I have not found myself to be any more social... in fact, I'd say I was less. I don't talk to people often and I'm fine with that. It's how I am. I have my friends, but they are few... however, they're really great friends. I've taken up new hobbies like weightlifting and creative writing, both proving to provide great outlets for both my energy and drive to really bring my imagination out... but still unlike anything this game provided.
Things will never change, though. And thus I will no longer provide. My focus has shifted to mediums that will better appreciate what I do, mediums that offer me the ability to improve more than this game ever could. I still stop by - if I didn't, I might end up actually rejoining. But no... I remind myself why I quit. And that is why CJ is still in charge and I am not.
I figured since my goodbye post was very trollish and since I've been getting bugged a lot lately to return that I would offer you this brief insight into my time on this game. I could write a book about it, so condensing this unorganized mess of thoughts was rather difficult. I might go into detail at a later date.
Against my better judgement, I am not locking replies. Since I no longer frequent this game nor care for those who inhabit it (save a few folks) I can simply ignore most of the awfulness that will crawl in here. Just getting one well written reply to this thread will be worth all the other fluff this section is known for. Feel free to compare experiences.
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zelo81
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| 02 Apr 2013 12:12 PM |
FINALLY. I spent twenty minutes finding out what word was blocking it from being posted. Turns out the word wasn't even remotely offensive, nor was it a 'bad word' that I might have accidentally slipped in.
Oh Roblox. Never change.
Because of me needing to edit this post, it might read awkwardly. I will provide the not-censored version off-game tonight, though they both send the same message... one is just written better. |
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| 02 Apr 2013 12:16 PM |
Stop by to visit sometimes.
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| 02 Apr 2013 12:17 PM |
I'm going to make a chart if this thread reaches 10 pages comparing Fluff/Spam:Actual Insight.
I expect a big bar above spam at this rate. |
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LordWolv
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| 02 Apr 2013 12:20 PM |
HAIL THE GLORIOUS LEADER POISONLAVA!
DOWN WTH RHC AND DONKEYO4!
wait.
wrong year.
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| 02 Apr 2013 12:21 PM |
"I'm going to make a chart if this thread reaches 10 pages comparing Fluff/Spam:Actual Insight. "
we can do this come on guys let's go make good posts that have to do with the thread so we can raise the bar above spa-
lol who am i kidding |
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| 02 Apr 2013 12:23 PM |
I can relate to how you feel about the complicated nature of the game, and some people just wipe it off as sweat on their forehead, but the interactions, and RAT was what kept me going. Despite, some people, sadly enough, a RAT Admiral trying to cause issues and bully me out of my own position I decided to remain stealth and make sure something was done.
Backing down, and caving in is only going to give them satisfaction, and I realized that I still had fight in me, and I'm only 16, so until I go to college I will be here, as well. The future, will hopefully become better in time with all of the lessons we learn daily from others, and even from the past.
Coler or I like to call you Jake, you've helped me through a lot, and the fact that you have been still here for me despite leaving this game has influenced and helped me out majorly. I'm glad we still stay in contact, you're one of my best friends, and I look up to your knowledge and usually foam at the mouth to get advice from you, because after all you're time here, you know what you're talking about.
I remember a talk we had about how we're thin skinned people in some aspects, and because of this we were able to relate and always be there for each other even in the roughest of times.
I thank you greatly for that, and despite the stupid decisions I've made by letting someone drive me, and all of my work out of RAT I will remain sturdy and remember I always have someone to relate to, a friend indeed. |
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| 02 Apr 2013 12:23 PM |
| piede just raised the bar a little |
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| 02 Apr 2013 12:23 PM |
I can see why you're so angsty all the time.
I visited Kent State, it's god awful. |
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| 02 Apr 2013 12:23 PM |
Like a dog returning to his vomit...
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| 02 Apr 2013 12:31 PM |
Thanks to pwad 'insight' won't be entirely empty. And you all diss on him. Pfft.
@squid
It really isn't. Not the prettiest campus and it has issues but it was my best choice if I wanted to remain local. |
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squidboi2
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| 02 Apr 2013 12:32 PM |
Went to Kent State's football game against Ohio last fall.
The campus looks decent but Kent itself is awful. |
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| 02 Apr 2013 12:32 PM |
how are kent state parties
i bet they suck compared to FSU
stuff gets crazy around here |
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